what i am doing?

i am totally getting crazy about money recently.
suddenly i am thinking of robbing banks,
then after that wishing of picking up money by the roadside,
or wondering when am i gonna get the kpt scholarship..

SHIT~!!

actually i am not that broke yet.
but looking at my wallet getting thinner is so heartbreaking.
thinking how to make it fatter again,
but its just vice versa, wallet getting fatter, then the one geting thinner is ME.
haha.

money money money.*scratching my head*
its not itchy.
i am just wondering how those people can handle their life in university if they don't have scholarship and doesn't ask help from their family?
well, working by themselves is certainly one of the answer.
other than that, i don't think the money will drop from the sky.
but, someone may thought the money is dropping on the roof of their houses.
keep asking money from home.

i am so sorry.
i really cannot do that.
it is so embrassing when you are 20 and you still wanna ask money from your mom.
and the most embrassed thing is...
you don't even appreciate it.
life in kl is so colourful.
full of entertainment and people that you want to spend money on.
think twice,thrice.
who gave you the money?
how hard they earn it?
why they rather wear such broken clothes?
while you are clubbing with your friends and spending their *blood-sweat*money.

i am not criticizing individually,
just look back on their hope on you.

myself is not from a rich family,
i am spending beyond my budget.
me too have to ask help from family as i am not working.
but, one day i will pay back to my family.
studying in university ain't that hard but it is not easy.
and this is personally.
getting a degree doesn't make your parents a degree holder.
its all yours.
so why they should spent so much money on you?
maybe they don't want you to pay back RM to them.
they just want you to remember them and crossing their fingers hoping you will success one day.